Mr Blondie and I had been together just 7 months by the time we’d decided we wanted a baby. It was April 2015. You’d think that was so early to be talking babies right? Nope! We were madly in love. Already moved in together after 2 months of being together. So you could say we had a theme of doing things quickly!
There’s one thing you should know about me. I am obsessed with the Next Directory online. I would sit there for hours looking at all the new baby clothes & nursery decor/furniture. Choosing carefully what theme I’d like and the clothes I’d want to buy as baby’s first outfit and so on! You’d of thought I was already pregnant. I had even picked out the pram I wanted, the Cosatto Giggle, which came in a variety of fun prints and colours. I just hadn’t decided whether I wanted it in pink or a blue theme! That was my only problem back then!
So, back to the proper details. It was mid-April 2015. I remember taking my last pill (I was on Mercilon, the combined pill, for 9 years, in case you’re wondering) and shoved that pill packet (there was still two pouches remaining) in my bottom drawer, where all disused things go to die in my life. I was so pleased that this was it. My last ever pill. All I needed to do then was wait for my period and off we go! My first cycle! Oh, how excited and optimistic I was.
As far as I knew, my cycle went straight back to normal. I had my period and then around 2 weeks later, I started to experience tell tale ovulation cramps and different kind of Cervical Mucus which I’d not seen before. We quickly jumped in to bed and got down to the business! I had read a few things online about the most fertile days and how long you’d have to wait to do a pregnancy test, so I thought that was simple enough to follow.
Two weeks dragged on by and during that time I think I experienced every symptom under the sun. Cramping, bloatedness, nausea, headaches, sore breasts, mood swings, breakouts. I thought for sure we’d nailed it. I went out and bought myself an array of pregnancy tests, feeling pretty positive. This was the first time I actually felt excited and proud to buy a pregnancy test. Not those horrible, petrified, life-flashing-before-your-eyes thoughts you got when you’re 17-years-old doing a pregnancy test in a petrol station bathroom with your best friend!
However, the tests didn’t mirror my ‘positive’ feeling.
Negative test after negative test. I was crushed.
Let’s just say, the next seventeen months quickly passed by, with many more negative pregnancy tests and crushed dreams.
I will leave it there for now but, did any of you feel this way? Let me know your first ever cycle experiences!
Love & Baby Dust,
~ Blondie x